So agrivated

I have no job. Actually scratch that I work with my best friend, but they dont give me any hours. I was told things but then they never happened. They hired a new person then he got all of the shifts and i got zero. Then he didnt work anymore I got about 2 shifts, then we hire someone else, and guess what? That's right he is working and I'm not working at all. I fucking hate this. I want to leave already. I am so bored and angry. I just want to disappear sometimes actually i want to disappear all of the time. I wonder when I really do leave if people will miss me like they say or when i come back will it be like I am a stranger? I don't care I don't want to be here. Get me out. I'll leave all of my friends I don't care. I want time to speed up so I can leave. I feel like so many things are unfair and that I try way too hard and I want to try less but it always fails. I don't even know what i'm saying anymore whatever. fuck everything i just want to live under a rock forever.