Day three

No call today. Worried sick. No nothing. I was just waiting for the clock to turn 11:30 so I could get that phone call. So I could hear your voice to know that you are okay. Why did you do this to me? Why did you not call me? Why are you so selfish? I don't understand you at all. I just miss you. I miss your smile, I miss your happiness, I miss your seven different laughs, I miss your impressions, I miss the way we used to sing stay awake until we were sick of it, I miss making starbucks or jamba runs, I miss you even being grounded, at least I knew you were safe, I miss going to marisco's and throwing salt over our shoulders, I miss your annoying and immature personality, I miss your loud voice, I miss your beautiful songs you would play for me on guitar, I miss the videos you love to take, I miss hanging out with you, I miss texting you, I miss reading your myspace bulletins, I am going to miss seeing you come into work every time I am there, I miss you. I miss every little thing about you. You have been gone for three days now, what feels like a life time. I hope you are safe. I hope you are making the right choices. I hope you are thinking of me. I played guitar today for one hour of all of your favorite songs you like when I play guitar and sing them, like: the world spins madly on, displaced, make you feel my love, turpentine, hallelujah, the song I wrote for you, soco amaretto lime, wild horses, the scientist, sea of love, birds, I wanna hold your hand, and stay awake. While I was playing/singing these songs I felt as if you could hear them like old times. I felt like I had to play for you so everything would be okay. To be your guardian angel, watching over you. So that you were safe. I felt like you were right there or that you know that I was playing them. I just want you to come home. Be with your family they miss you and love you. Your parents are constantly calling Marli seeing if she got a call from you. I can't stop talking about you and bringing stuff up that we have done. We have done everything together. You are my sister. I love you more then the world. Be safe. Be clean. Be selfless. I'm praying for you. God is looking out for you. Find your way home.