Finished

I'M DONE WITH YOU. GET OUT OF MY LIFE. YOU'RE NOTHING TO ME. AND YOU NEVER WILL BE EVER AGAIN.

    FUCK YOU!!!

sounds of the white board

squeek squeek squeek " a verb can need be at the end of a sentence" English fourth period. Sitting here waiting for the bell to ring. Trying to get my mind off of it. Counting down the seconds. The clock ticks slowly. Trying to keep myself busy until that fateful bell finally rings. Okay just sit back relax olivia. School is almost over. Only one period left ASL but it's the longest period. Ah just get your mind off of it. Okay interesting things? Hmm hanging out with Hailey tonight okay that's good fun exciting but wait I have work tonight I hate work. God things flying in and out of my head dashing and darting things. Huck Finn I wonder what he would be doing right now. Sitting at a lake fishing? Having fun? " what's huck going to be allowed to do?" mrs.moore rambaling on and on explaing huckleberry Finn to my 11 CP English class. People talking about blazing " oh yeah so I used to blaze a lot then I stopped then started again" " yeah idk I get embarresed" blah blah blah noises dumb conversations rustling through papers. Six minutes. Six minutes till it's over. Five minutes five minutes till this class is done. One hour and 10 minutes till school is over. Dying of boredom. I wanna play guitar. CHOIR. God. That's all I have to say choir jumble jumble jumble. Leaders of choir. Makenzie. Sam. Louisa. Jessica. Ben. And I. Choir. Run by us. Ruled by us. Directed by us. Forget fritzen it's our choir. Three minutes. Three minutes till the bell. Everyone is racing to put their shit away. I guess I'll follow. Two minutes. One minute. Zero. Ding ding ding

Around and around we go.

things turn, people change, some stuff fail, noises repeat, lives end ,new days begin, seasons start over, faces form, old becomes ancient, styles become trends, looks are made fun of, past flows to the present, love evolves into hatred, peace becomes war, freedom makes no sense, secrets are revealed, truths become false, equality is thrown out, homes are being taken over, souls are being lost, education is no more, ignorance rises, time crumbles down, sun circles the earth, heat shatters to cold, weather traps global warming, magazines break hearts, economy ruins families, hopes crush dreams, nightmares frighten the rich, creations follow miracle, imagination expands minds, running thoughts make inventions, isolation creeps up on sheltered towns, religion folds out restrictions, order reflects neglect, abuse wrecks a persons energy, drugs find there way to perfect lives, friendship are nothing more then back stabbing, boredom enables mental issues, parents are meant for good, boundaries are over stepped, rules are broken, respect is torn, suspicion gets crossed, memories melt,  REACH, correction has been looked at, expectations are met, heartbreak is mended, paths are crossed, rebellion is over rated, emails can be slow, revolutions counter react, complements aren't always good, stupidity's second guessed, belief is inspired, breaking news isn't always bad, travels far away, carry through space and time, history repeats itself, art is crafter, violence is looked down upon, fairy tales aren't always happy, praying doesn't matter, rebuttal backfires, time flies by into infinity.

Please connect that to your modem.

                                     
58 Minutes and 47 seconds was just spent on the phone with Time Warner Cable people. "Please unplug this from your modem and plug it into the computer" Okay well I didn't know what half of the shit was and they expected me to. The first person probably thought I was stupid and kept getting mad at me because I didn't know what the fuck a modem was cause there were 5 boxes under my desk and I was confused. She kept on saying "Thank you for being patient" about 20 times. All I wanted was my internet for neopets and my homework :( and now I has it. :D success!

                                                                     Outdoor school interview

Well I walk in with a lot of energy and I am very polite and kind. Totally nailed the interview and they totes loved me. There were two guys. One who was nice and talked a lot the other didn't talk much except for one question. I hope I get it. I did a realllly great interview so I am feeling pretty good about it now.

                                                                         Day three of my Pact

It's going pretty well if I can say so myself. Fought the urge to smoke when miss.Marissa beatrice Gerig smoked in front me me. Felt good to say no. :) Everything is going smoothly.

                                                                                   JOB!!!

I need a new one! NOW. I hate Daphnes so much I wish it would die. FAACK.                          

Not unstoppable

So I come home from school everyday at around 12:20 unless it's monday wednesday or friday then I come home around 1:40. It's the same routine most everyday. Get out of school, go home or to the gym, play guitar, go on the computer, homework, and then TV at night. I have gone in and out of many things good and bad. Middle of freshman year I dropped being straight edge and got into drugs, raves, drinking, smoking, and basically playing the "cool card". Sophomore year grades slipped a lot, stoner, drinking, raves, and drugs. Changes and changes and changes. Going through friends, problems, and more. Junior year stoner, great grades, good friends, everything is alright. But is that where it's going to stop? I crossed out smoking weed, doing drugs, and smoking cigarettes. Things evolve. Realizations come up. Changes happen. It's the end. But the start of a new beginning. True friends, real friends, false friends, fake friends. Many things that happen in a persons life that could be good but also bad. You know when you're with a bunch of friends talking about a bunch of stuff if you could do this would you? If you could live anywhere where would you live? Those types of questions. But the question that always comes up is "If you had one wish what would it be?" Well if I had one wish my one wish would be...I wish I never touched a drug, I wish I never smoked a cigarette, I wish I never influenced people. I wonder how life would be if I never had any of that in my life. You know the true valuable things in your life are the things you fight for. But what if the things you fight for just won't listen? Is too stubborn? I wish I had the power to change stuff. It's interesting how people follow. Go in and out of doing stuff. Start up what you shouldn't but thing is is that the people around you are doing it and I guess it just would be so boring if you didn't do it. It's very odd. When was the last time people stopped following? I know I follow but try not to. Life turns and turns and turns everyday, every second. School is good family is good, friends are alright. I deserve great things, I deserve great people, I deserve a great future, I deserve the best. The things that happen in peoples lives are so important and impacting. People are created from other people leaving an impression on you, an impact, a memory, a new routine, traditions, ways of life. That is what people are made of, what you are made of, what I am made of. Life isn't about what kind of phone a person has, the type of iPod, kind of car, brand of clothes, how much money a person has. It's about the people in your life. The memories people make. The good times you have. When did that become unimportant? What about my life? My life? Great parents good friends good grades. Change? Change is good. Well today I made a pact with my friend and the pact was that I wouldn't smoke another gram another puff another hit of weed and he wouldn't drink anymore. A new page? A new chapter? A clean slate? Well whatever it is it's going to be exhilarating, clean, fresh, fun. If you look at a person who is on something what goes through your mind? They look dumb don't they? So why would I want to look dumb? It's just a stupid action that could make you look like an idiot for a long time. Do you want that? I sure don't. Well day one here I come. Exciting? Yes. Nerve racking? Oh yeah. Ready to see the out come? Hell yeah. Live your life. Yeah your young but what you do now affects how you are in the future. You're not unstoppable. Just wait for the end. I hope it's not too early before the end comes for you. Many things fly through my life. I want to take time to see them.