I know all of my blogs are depressing. So here's another. This is the worst summer ever, it fucking sucks. The things I do everyday: wake up watch tv, go on facebook, play guitar, draw, make Kandi, wait for my mom to come home, maybe use her car to go to TO, or watch tv with my mom, go to bed at 12-1, wake up the next morning and do it all over again. I could honestly tell you all of the things I've done so far this summer that's how boring it is. Rarely u get the call to hang out but no one will drive out to me I have to me all of the effort, my friends won't even drive me home if I don't have a ride yet I drive them everywhere and never ask for anything in return. I'm stuck in this apartment 4-5 days out of the week sometimes more. I was fired from my job basically which leads me to no money and no where will hire me. I have no human contact most of the time and the only person I ever see is my mom. Do you see now why I want to leave so badly? I just wish sometimes I'd be asked to do something and not just forgot about cause I live in the valley. Godamn do I wish it was September so I'm out of here.

So agrivated

I have no job. Actually scratch that I work with my best friend, but they dont give me any hours. I was told things but then they never happened. They hired a new person then he got all of the shifts and i got zero. Then he didnt work anymore I got about 2 shifts, then we hire someone else, and guess what? That's right he is working and I'm not working at all. I fucking hate this. I want to leave already. I am so bored and angry. I just want to disappear sometimes actually i want to disappear all of the time. I wonder when I really do leave if people will miss me like they say or when i come back will it be like I am a stranger? I don't care I don't want to be here. Get me out. I'll leave all of my friends I don't care. I want time to speed up so I can leave. I feel like so many things are unfair and that I try way too hard and I want to try less but it always fails. I don't even know what i'm saying anymore whatever. fuck everything i just want to live under a rock forever.