Days

I love everyday that I have been blessed with. I love the people I have been blessed with. I love the parents and sister I have been blessed with. I am so happy with everything. I hope it stays like this for a while. I finally found two people who could actually be a best friend to me. I like my job. I like school. I like my volunteering. I love these girls.

I want it back.

It's been too long since I wrote on this, and that makes me sad. Wow every time I write a blog it feels like forever. I have so much to say. I say that every time too. Well summer blew by. I miss it. Even though it feels like I am most def still in it. I go to school from 8-10. If you ever thought something felt amazing. You havent gotten out of school 2 hours later from when you started. Cause that, that feels amazing. I started my first day of educational aid. It's just what i needed and suspected. I went back to my old elementary school and my 6th grade teacher didn't recognize me and was blown away when she found out it was me. The class I am helping in is my old 2nd grade teacher. It is basically perfect. I had a great first day there. I can't wait to see my other old teachers. School is more then perfect. I love my classes. Work is UHHHMAAAZZZING! I work with sarah which is so much fun! Speaking of work I have to be there soon. I hope to start writing in this on a regular again.

Never realized.

It's actually here. You're actually gone. I'm gonna miss you. I wish I said bye. You're gonna do amazing. I want to write to you. You're in my heart all the time. I hope this all blows by fast. Good luck. You'll do more then perfect, remember it's cause you're Brock. You can do anything. I love you.

Shake.

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Nonsense is what is in my head. Nothing but pure nothingness. Don't understand? It's okay me neither. Coming out is junk. Trying to be one is out of the question. Wanting the best can't even go there. Distractions. Not believing. Nothing matters. Not focusing of the important things. Destroy. Gone. Done. Finished.

Block

I can't write a decent song. I can't write a blog worth reading. I can't keep a good conversation. I can't think of chord changes for my guitar. I am completely blocked. I don't know why. But it's the worst feeling ever. I feel like I am in pain.