Didn't see that coming.

I don't even know what to say. I have rewritten this sentence at least 4 times because I am at a lose for words. My mind is all jumbled up. My thoughts have turned to mush. All I can think about is what must be going through their heads. The passing of a family member is a great fear for most people. Today some people have faced that fear. I can not even imagine how one would feel. This is a complete and total shock and surprise. What a great person. It wasn't his time to go but I guess god thought it was his time. The things he brought into peoples lives. The main things I could always remember is him being so worried about his daughter all the time, so worried about his whole family. A caring person. With an open heart. He has touched us all in different ways. I remember being frightened of him and thinking he always would suspect me of one thing or another. But in the end it was just him being caring, thoughtful, and protective. You are in everyones heart and will be deeply and truly missed. You are in a better place now, watching over all of us. Rest easy papa gerig.
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Crash

I feel trapped. I feel closed in. I feel as if I can't breathe. I feel like someone is suffocating me. I feel conquered. I feel defeated. I feel never ending. I feel as though there is nothing to do besides sink into the nothingness of my bed. I feel like I can't break free. I feel that I will never leave this place. I feel that every thing will stay the same forever. I feel as though change is not in the future. I feel that we are being crushed by ignorance. I feel that the world is falling down on all of us and we are being taken over by global warming and the faulty economy. I feel that nothing will ever be new. I feel that I will never wake up in the morning without weezing with asthma. I feel impatient. I feel misguided. I feel neglected. I feel lost. I feel lonely. I feel I do more bad than I should be doing. I feel the need to give back. I feel the fears of my life. I feel I should not be so judgemental. I feel I should be more open. I feel I need to be cleaned of all the bad. I feel a part missing. I feel that the sight of myself is slipping away from me and I won't be able to get it back.

WOW

I saw earth today. Talk about amazing.

FML

Odd phone call tonight. Strange things are going to happen tomorrow. I just know it. Awkward morning is in my future. Not to sure how I feel abouts that. I am biting my nails in a nervous roar.

YOU

Are home. FINALLY. I am oh so very happy sir. I just wanted you to know that. Did you know that? I am so excited to see your bright and shining face!

^^That's how happy^^