Shake.

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Nonsense is what is in my head. Nothing but pure nothingness. Don't understand? It's okay me neither. Coming out is junk. Trying to be one is out of the question. Wanting the best can't even go there. Distractions. Not believing. Nothing matters. Not focusing of the important things. Destroy. Gone. Done. Finished.

Block

I can't write a decent song. I can't write a blog worth reading. I can't keep a good conversation. I can't think of chord changes for my guitar. I am completely blocked. I don't know why. But it's the worst feeling ever. I feel like I am in pain.

Too long.

I feel as though I have be unattached from the world of blogspot and I need to reopen my relationship with it. Well I have been sick since monday. I had a fever but I felt frozen to the core. I felt faint. Dizzy. Headaches. My body felt horrible. So I went to urgent care monday. They didn't so shit. Went to urgent care tuesday. I was throwing up I couldn't eat. That was the worst part of summer. I can't believe it has been a month since I have written on this. I can't write much right now but everything is amazing. I have an interview at university village next tuesday. My best friend comes into town on saturday and summer school ends next week. I'll write more tonight. What a beautiful life.

My week.

San Francisco for 3 days.
Thursday beach.
Friday lunch and jaci diggs party.
Saturday EDC!
Sunday relaxation and recuperation.

Home.

Tomorrow. For some reason I don't want to go. Is that weird? Coming from me? Is this really coming from me? That seems odd. I feel like I am going to miss out on so much. But yet again I won't be saying that on wednesday when I have to come back. I have so many things I am looking forward to when I come back. Except thursday. I'm not sure if I am too excited for that. Beach with you won't that be odd? Since you did ruin a big chunk of my life. But you know what you didn't I learned from what you threw at me. I am excited for friday. Hanging out with andrew fox we are gonna go party! Saturday EDC!! And sunday I have to hang out with my cousin "/ what a drag. But I am so over whelmingly excited for EDC you have no idea. But when am I going to fit YOU into my scheduale? God I want to see you so badly. You make me smile and laugh and you give me so many butterflies its crazy. I can't wait to see what happens with everything. Well till next week then! I hope to see you. Summer 09 is amazing. I feel like all I want to do is playing all day in the sprinkalers like we did when we were little kids. Maybe that will happen when I get home! The anticipation is killing me. I am nibbling and my nails. I guess I have to wait.