My home.

The moment I layed eyes on you I knew you were the one. I knew you were the thing to keep me going. I knew you were the push in my life. I knew you were where my heart longed for. I knew all of these things without realizing. Gosh how I have a need for you. I strive to be apart of you. I yearn to have a place someone in this blessed place. I can't stop thinking about you. I can't wait to be here forever. I can't wait to fit in, to belong, to love. My journey will start shortly. My heart will be filled. My life will be complete. One year, two months, and 3 weeks. This is what I am counting down for when I am here to stay. My life, my heart, my journey belongs in San Francisco. My home. I have never felt so right about one place in my life, it is just crazy. I can't wait to enroll myself into SF community college. I can't wait to get an apartment. I can't wait to finally start my life. Finally be with the people I deserve to be with. Do things with my life that I should have done a while ago. Every time I go back to San Francisco I feel like I am going back home. When ever I feel like I go back to Thousand Oaks I feel like I am going on a nightmare vacation. Save me. You will soon. One year, two months, and three weeks. One year, two months, and three weeks. One year, two months, and three weeks. 

Feeling.

I feel whole again. I drove 200 miles today with my pop to beautiful San Francisco. Gosh what a great ride up here. It was so beautiful today because it was raining and we drove through mountains and such. I can't wait to start my day tomorrow and take some pictures, walk around, and maybe work on a new song. I'll get to play with my little cousins tomorrow which should be fun and that I am quite excited about. Going into the city on saturday. Sunday going to this plant thing I am not sure what it is but it sounds better then how I am saying it on here. Monday going to have some alone time and walk around the city in union square, then have the rest of the day with my pop. Going to this restaurant that my dad is doing a book for. Going to Castro street, Haight Ashbury, Hippie hill hopefully, the Fairy building, and a few more of my favorite places. Gosh I am so happy here. I am going to be so sad when I return home. I don't want to think about going back. Oh but I will be looking at schools and apartments so I am happy! Moving next year. I can't wait!! Well I am too tired to understand or write well right now. I feel as though I am just writing in a diary all of my nonsense like a nine year old girl. I feel as though I am free. Surrounded by my possibilities. Gosh I am too excited.

I feel as though I have nothing to write about. Nothing exciting is happening in my life. It's dull boring and needs some lighting up. I need something new to fill my time. Oh wait I have something to look forward to. Brock is coming home next week!!! I am going to see him I am so excited to also see where he is going on his mission. I am going to miss him so much :(. Oh Um I hate passover. I don't like my mom she's so stupid and so rude to me and I hate it. She makes me want to scream and cry and sometimes I just want to push her. She drives me crazy I hate it. I seriously cannot take living with her. I am so happy I won't see her for five days. It is going to be so peaceful and quiet and nice. Ahh I am so excited. San Francisco with my dad is going to be AMAZING. Much better then with my mom. She would just control everything and be a bitch. I seriously have such a disliking for her. It's so hard because I wish she was a mom that I could go to for anything. But she's not. She's horrible to be around and everyone in the family knows that. I just feel bad for my dad. Well San Fran tomorrow. Yay. 

My home.

I will be there tomorrow! Just one day until I am out of this hell hole. Off to San Francisco! Gosh I am so excited. My heart is going to explode.

San Francisco in 3 days. I am over come with excitement and joy. I am going to walk around my soon to be home until I drop to the floor. I love my life. Spring break in 3 days.