I have not yet been able to express my emotion towards what happened at 9:08 P.M. Wednesday night February 24th 2010. I have lost someone very close to me and I don't yet believe he is gone. The impact he has made on my life has been tremendous. I didn't really realize how big of a part you played in my life. There are so many things I want to tell you. So many memories fly in and out of my head. Everytime I close my eyes I see memories playing back of good times we have had. I just want to pull you out of a picture and have you sitting next to me again with Sarah and Darrah and Joe just sitting smoking and laughing. I just want to bump into you and say hey. I want to be able to get a call from you pick my phone up and hear you say "hey are you with Sarah right now? Wanna meetup?" I want to call your phone and hear your ringback tone. There are so many things I want to do and this list can go on and on. I want one more moment with you I want to say I'm sorry. The last words I said to you were "dusty you're a low life and you don't deserve Sarah". I can't believe that that has to be the last memory i shared with you. the last moment that we had together was so angry yet you remained so calm and collected and you never were like that when it came to an argument. you loved sarah so much and I never saw anybody care for my best friend as much as you did. The things you would say to me about her were so pure and from the heart. I know that all you wanted was to be with her forever. To share every moment you had with her. She was the only thing that mattered to you . She was the world. Dusty you were one of the most caring people i had ever met. It didnt matter how much I would get on your nerves you would still always be there for me. You were forgiving and true to your friends. I will never forget any of the times I have spent with you. The laughs we have shared and just the unreal moments of what a true friend is. You have opened my eyes to a lot of things. I just wish that I could have learned all of this with you still alive and with us. I can't accept that you are gone at all.
I feel as though I will wake up and it would be one of those mornings after a fat party at my house or your house and I'd walk into my parents room to find you and sarah and that room always reeking of weed because you forgot to take it out of your pocket. The morning after a party was always the best cause it was like we were a huge family and you and sarah were the mama and the papa. We have had so many bad moments but all of the millions of amazing moments have over come those bad ones. I never knew this would happen to a friend this close to me and I wish that there was some way any way that I could take everything back and for you to be okay and just ready to hang out and have a good time again.
Dusty I have never met someone as genuine as you and I will treasure all of the times we had. You are always in my thoughts and i love you and miss you so much I can't stand it. I would do anything just to see you again and act as though nothing had ever happened. I miss you and I can't wait to see you again one day soon. Take care of all of us and I know you are looking down at us and protecting us. We are looking up at you and talk about you everyday. See you soon Dustin. I will never forget you.Dustin Koji Fante
11/2/89-2/24/10
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