Never realized.

It's actually here. You're actually gone. I'm gonna miss you. I wish I said bye. You're gonna do amazing. I want to write to you. You're in my heart all the time. I hope this all blows by fast. Good luck. You'll do more then perfect, remember it's cause you're Brock. You can do anything. I love you.

Shake.

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Nonsense is what is in my head. Nothing but pure nothingness. Don't understand? It's okay me neither. Coming out is junk. Trying to be one is out of the question. Wanting the best can't even go there. Distractions. Not believing. Nothing matters. Not focusing of the important things. Destroy. Gone. Done. Finished.

Block

I can't write a decent song. I can't write a blog worth reading. I can't keep a good conversation. I can't think of chord changes for my guitar. I am completely blocked. I don't know why. But it's the worst feeling ever. I feel like I am in pain.

Too long.

I feel as though I have be unattached from the world of blogspot and I need to reopen my relationship with it. Well I have been sick since monday. I had a fever but I felt frozen to the core. I felt faint. Dizzy. Headaches. My body felt horrible. So I went to urgent care monday. They didn't so shit. Went to urgent care tuesday. I was throwing up I couldn't eat. That was the worst part of summer. I can't believe it has been a month since I have written on this. I can't write much right now but everything is amazing. I have an interview at university village next tuesday. My best friend comes into town on saturday and summer school ends next week. I'll write more tonight. What a beautiful life.