I am at a lose right now. I don't know what to write about. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't think I can generate any thoughts about what to say or what to write. An update? What I want to do in life? School? Friends? I don't know! It's all the same. All of the time. Prom, well we all know what happened that night, it was so fun. What I want to do in life is all the same. My parents still won't allow me to take my GED but I guess it's for the best. I kind of want to graduate with all of my friends so that's an upside. A down side though is that I have to stay here for another year. Why?! Just let me move in with my sister please please please! School, well I basically just talked about it. Term paper is finally done thank god! It stressed me out so much god I hated it! I want school to be over already, someone please make that happen? I HATE my english class. I feel so bad for my teacher no one listens and I can just tell that she wants to scream out to the heavens for an answer of how to make these kids listen. Friends, well being in the play brought me to gaining more friends which makes me happy. I was at a lose with friends then I found some amazing people. They make me laugh, smile, and so happy all of the time! I just still wish I could get some answers from the one friend who means a lot to me though. But is it selfish of me to not talk to him? To wait for him to come to his senses and actually acknowledge me because he never has. I have done so much for him and be the best of friend to him. I just wish he would call me just to ask how I was doing. Call me to see if I wanted to hang out. Text me just to say hi not to ask when my mom can cut his hair. God damn I just want him to see that I am there and that I love him but no he is to selfish and too self absorbed to try and open his eyes and see. Hey guess what your "best friend" is gone buddy. What's next? I hope change. Anyway I see my bleezy fo sheezy in 3 weeks. I can't wait to see her beautiful face. That will bring some good into my life! I miss her so much everyday! It's beach time soon. I need to get on that. I love the beach! I remember I used to HATE the beach. I am so glad things changed. I need some entertainment. Well hopefully michaels parents go out of town tomorrow then party on! And then saturday beach party after the play! I am so excited and happy. Brings smiles to my face. I am totally out of things to talk about now. Hopefully it won't take me such a long time to think of my next blog. I miss it. :(