Once more.

Trying and trying over again to make things better, make it so that everything is okay, so that you don't feel the way you hate to feel. I try so hard. You want to change and beg for help, cry and plead to me about everything, to the point where you just want to get on your knees and pull it out of me. Wanting to do better, wanting change, and saying okay last chance. Well you have fucked up so many chances, always falling back into the same flow, and always letting me down. God fucking dammit I just want to scream and yell at you till it is fully through and stuck into your head. I look after you, I am the best person in your life, I make sure you are not out on the street, but you continuously throw that away, forget about everything I have said, forget about everything I have tried to do to help you. Not remembering that YOU were the one asking, crying, begging for change. And YOU are the one who keeps on blowing it, fucking it up, and going round and round and round. It's just an on going thing with you isn't it? You don't want change. You don't want help. You just want to be STUCK like you keep on getting. Well haha guess what? The one who is trying to make you a better person, trying to help you, trying to get you not stuck anymore, is done helping. DONE. Finished. If you want to try and change I will be here waiting. But I will only be here for the sober, clean, nice, bright, changed you. Nothing else. Nothing less nothing more. Only the changed you. I guess you will just have to learn the difficult way. I hope you find the light. I hope you find your way. I hope you find the you I know and love. I hope you change. Because obviously I can't change you make you better help you. So here you go find your way, carve your path, be you. I am done being played. I am done trying. I am DONE.